free to me (poetry video)

a recent poem of mine. hope you ❤️. transcript: I didn't know you at twenty two but you say that your shoulders were smaller and there was a young girl that loved you I can't wrap my head around you I want you sweaty over me  and my body’s too big now but my heart goes just as fast as it did when I was the shy girl tracing your name on my belly unable to sleep  I just wanted you to walk me home now I don't stutter when I have to say my name anymore at your new digs you showed me where to kick my shoes where I could sit and stared at me as I trailed over my life and my mother’s when I pull my knees in you look at me like whatever you've got is free to me now I like the crunch of snow under my feet even though I miss being your summer girl I like smoke and sweat in cars the rumble my throat my lips my eyes bleak your hand the heat  presses slows down our systems shorts the flow  of talking we’re tapped out I never sleep easier than I do going from one place to another it's how my mom could calm me as a baby I fall over in love like a ratchet shot gleefully trashed my friends don’t like men I’m the ditsy one standing here like won't you see my soul through my summer cotton everything was sparing to me it’s the way it goes when you don't know where you are sometimes and it’s the prettiest of days all so pretty you fluff the damp ringlets in my hair the rain do that wow babydoll won't smile it's teetering wrong again babydoll