MI NOVIO Y YO ATRAPADOS EN LA RUTINA

Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped stuck in a routine that's very comfortable, but sometimes it's usually horrible, and I wonder: How did I get here? If I was free, I slowly and without realizing it got used to being alone with you. I started postponing my dates, my outings to have fun my coffee with my best friend, my Friday nights with my friends, my Saturdays off, and even my Sundays with my family just to spend them with you, not to mention swapping my hobbies for yours. My friends ask about me, asking what happened to me, why I changed, or why I distanced myself from them, even asking "if they hit me?" And of course they don't hit me because I alone chose to be with you all those days. Every day that I fell in love with you, my mind only thought about being with you, eating, at your soccer games, at gatherings with your friends, with your family, waiting for you outside your workplace, or simply watching TV on the couch at home. Making your time my time. And that was all I asked for, what I truly wanted. But... what about the sad days? On the angry days, the ones I don't even understand myself What do I do? With what face do I seek out my friends, with what force do I distance myself from you if we're already so deeply rooted in that routine. And I try to reflect on the reason for the anger that is becoming more and more frequent. And my answer is: That routine, the one that doesn't let us change direction, that has us trapped and doesn't let us take a breath. Because when nothing bothers us about each other, we enjoy it, we have fun, and we feel fulfilled. But when not? When something bothers us, when we argue over insignificant things. That's when it becomes so horrible, I want to run away, not argue anymore, just be me and nothing else. And I'm clear about where I stand, and I say to myself: Myself, get out of there, go, take the time you need to be at peace with yourself with clear ideas, with a calm mind And never forget that routine is meant to be broken So take the ship of your life and steer. And I will no longer neglect those loyal friends, my family, those hobbies that define who I am, my I will not lose myself in this love alone, because there is another, more important one: MY OWN There is a world turning, advancing, changing, and I can't stop at just you, because I also exist. I look at myself and tell myself that I will continue to grow, I will work harder on myself, and I will continue on my path. I will not stop, I will do it for me. Because someone who will always be with me will be me and no one else. And I'll share something with you: Make him miss you and give yourself the chance to miss him. Give yourself time. Have separate adventures so that at the end of the day you can laugh, reflect, and improve from what you've experienced. Don't skip those stages of your life because you're living his life. Both of you should be interested in each other's hobbies and even share them. But don't put aside everything that makes you happy, what makes you who you are, because you believe he is your complete happiness. And on those bad days, know that sometimes it's necessary to take a break; it doesn't cost anything and it's worth a lot. It will do absolutely good to stop arguing in the relationship. And don't lose your essence, those things you like to do, your daily tasks, your projects, goals, and dreams. BE FREE, BEING TOGETHER. #yesjess #routine