melancholy is my baseline emotion. a moody kiyoharu 清春 [playlist]

I woke up at 3AM to make this playlist in anticipation of the dark, dead winter months. the line up is all moody and melancholic songs by one of my favorite artists and voices, Kiyoharu. the nostalgic Japanese rock takes you right back to a time when you may have been depressed, but you were also closer to yourself in a convoluted way. maybe that's just me. I find that the more I embrace the melancholy in my heart, the more I return to myself. it's this certain closeness that I can't receive from other people. I hope you enjoy the music my soul dwells in. if you want to subscribe to my patreon https://www.patreon.com/esc_reality or send me a tip: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/escrealityYT , thank you so much, your donation actually helps me put food on my table aswell as pay for the expenses of acquiring set props, maintaining my filming gear and storing several terabytes of videos in case of apocalypse. you make more of a difference than you think.