la fine è un nuovo inizio ❤️

Aggiungo che una vita privata ed una vita per così dire “pubblica”, sebbene io non sia mai stata neanche lontanamente famosa, possono benissimo coesistere. Ci sono persone che sicuramente ci riescono alla grande. Sono io che in questo percorso ho perso “pezzi” di me e mi sono sentita alienata, alla lunga. Ma è stata una esperienza fantastica e da essa posso solo che imparare, capire ed essere grata. Sì, perché da ogni esperienza bisogna avere la forza di prendere tutto, il positivo e il negativo. Grazie ancora, a tutti❤️ A presto Sara ENGLISH TRANSLATION Hello everyone, I wanted to write this brief message to all of you. First of all, I want to clarify that I am doing well and fortunately nothing serious has happened to me. After months of absence, I thought a lot on whether or not to bring new content to this channel, and I wanted to inform you of what has happened. I started recording ASMR videos when I was about eighteen years old, with some knowledge of video editing and a recorder in my hands. Going back even further, I have been enjoying ASMR videos since around 2013, when during a sleepless night I searched for “relaxing voice” on YouTube, certain that I would find nothing but guided meditations. Yet, I found this world that today is known to everyone, or almost everyone. Subsequently, with the curiosity of someone who, like me, grew up with the Internet and still remembers the five stars of YouTube instead of likes, I uploaded a whispered video in my old bedroom with the Pulp Fiction poster stuck to the wall. Those who have followed me know well my “story” on this channel, and I would like to say to you that I am very grateful to have reached you, in some way. If I have to be honest, now more than ever I feel exactly as before, nothing more than a carefree and alive girl. I grew up following the first YouTubers like Willwoosh, Canesecco, Yotobi, Cliomakeup, to name a few, and I have always liked the idea of recording myself and speaking to someone beyond the screen. I never wanted or thought of being a YouTuber, and over time I realized that being in front of the camera was not for me. Yet, knowing that someone appreciated the content I published, valuing my creativity and remembering my name, was something fantastic. Actually, knowing that some of you remember certain words I used in old videos makes me truly grateful, still. I remember the comments of some enthusiastic mothers who managed to put their children to sleep with my videos. I remember some elementary school kids who greeted me by shouting “hi Saraaa” outside of school, and I blushed like a pepper. The negative sides of the story are there, as in all stories. I feel like, first of all, the online world hasn’t felt “mine” for a long time. For years, I deleted Instagram, for example. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t move to a deserted island without an internet connection, but probably some things I experienced here left a mark on me, or gave me a lesson, depending on how you look at it. During my journey, I also faced challenges related to the violation of my privacy by some people. These experiences made me reflect even more on the dynamics of the online world and the value of protecting privacy. Unfortunately, even in the safest community, envy and frustration can seep in. Moreover, anyone can wear masks and appear as someone they are not. So, when I realized I was part of this game, I decided to turn the car around, make a U-turn, and go away. This epiphany, revelation, or awareness I didn’t have recently, but it has been bubbling in my belly for years. One day many years ago, I realized that I was no longer dedicating time to one of the most important persom in my life, the one who walked by my side in every adventure, and so I lost them without even realizing it. I was so focused on the content and online interactions that I didn’t realize how much I was neglecting real life. I learned that happiness and fulfillment do not depend on the number of views or likes, but on authentic connections and experiences lived in the real world. My decision to distance myself from YT was not easy, but necessary to find myself and my balance. Now I dedicate much more time to the real world, my hobbies, the people, and passions I had set aside. I rediscovered the pleasure of reading books, enriching my mind, hiking and walking in nature, and dedicating myself to projects that enrich me. Being simply and boringly normal is beautiful. I don’t know if and when I will return to creating content on this channel. For now, I take the time I need to grow and discover new parts of myself. If I decide to come back, it will be with a new awareness and a different perspective. To all of you who have followed and supported me, I want to say thank you. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to share a part of myself with you. I will always carry with me the memories of this adventure and the warmth of your presence. I send you a big hug, Sara