asmr rambling - this video is a mess

the second part of this video is soooo irritating because i wasn't able to form my thoughts properly but as i'm uploading this i just want to add a few words to clarify the bs i'm saying. also, if you find my way of thinking too harsh, then that is fine and this advice is not applicable to you. i’m sharing this because the whole “love yourself” idea did NOTHING to improve my sense of self worth and repairing my insecurities. life keeps going, no matter what. to delude yourself means to permanently set your self up for failure and devastation when you don’t achieve something. this is what causes the harmful cycle of crippling insecurities. be realistic, and be true to yourself. this is the only way in which you’ll be able to build any meaningful relationships and experiences in your life. the world does not give a shit about you - get out of your own ass and give yourself a break. social media can be fun, but if it doesn't bring you joy and all social media does for you is encourage you to scrutinise your literal DNA - i'm begging you, get off your phone and go spend some time with a loved one. delegating so much of your energy to obsessing over things that are out of your control serves no purpose except self-inflicted torture. just let it go. there’s so much freedom to be found on the other side of this mentality. the only thing that has helped me in this life so far with my self-image, is proactively choosing not to care about what i can’t control. it won’t come naturally at first - you have to CHOSE not to care every time the negative voice in your head pipes up. despite how uncomfortable/counteractive it is initially, i am confident that, after a while, you will realise just how much time you wasted in your life being so cruel to yourself and not have anything to show for it. there is no danger to not “looking your best”. the world will not fall apart. people aren’t going to spit at you on the street. why? because, like i said, no one cares (in the best way possible). everyone else is way too busy obsessing about themselves to care about you. use that to your advantage. the most wonderful part about all of this is that your real friends will still love you just the same. your family will love you just the same. you will still go to work or to school the same way you did before. the only thing that will change is that you might finally spend less nights crying and ripping yourself apart in the mirror. by pursing your own happiness, your own comfort, your own style, you will naturally surround yourself with people with shared interests and passions. how dare you deny yourself a genuine life? who gave you the right to deny yourself peace? a life where you can rest assured that the people around you love you for who you ACTUALLY are? take the time to get to know yourself. how YOU like to dress. how YOU like to do your hair and do your makeup (if at all). the music YOU like to listen to. the activities that bring YOU joy. that’s all it comes down to at the end of the day. it’s all down to you alone, and no one is coming to save you. some people will find you attractive, others won't want to touch you with a ten-foot pole. some people will find you charming, others will find you off-putting. some people will think you're a great musician, but other people simply don't like the kind of music you make. and it’s none of your business. in this life, you are damned if you do and you're damned if you don't. make peace with that. god bless